Sometimes I just have to laugh at myself.

I’ve been in a weird Glee-like funk for a few days now. I look at my life and I just get frustrated. I want more, but I can’t seem to get what I want to come to pass. So I just dwell in my frustration and become no fun to hang out with. Sorry about that.

Last night I’m working on my Bible study homework and the lesson was all about finding satisfaction in God. [For those of you going through Breaking Free, don’t judge. I know I’m behind on my homework. hahaha!] In my head I’m like “Duh, I this is common sense.” But looking at my life I’m so clearly not satisfied. But recognizing you have a problem is the first step to recovery, right? So I went to bed all “Tomorrow’s going to be different. I’m going to find my satisfaction in God and it’s going to be a great day!”

But then my alarm went off.

I had to get ready for work instead of snuggle my puppy. Then there was no parking at work. Seriously? It’s 9am on a Friday morning. Why is the parking lot completely full? Then my coworkers were just generally irritating. Clearly if I was someone else, ANYONE else but Stacee Lianna this would not be happening. Sometimes dramatic is the only way I know how to be. So I started drowning my unsatisfied sorrows by browsing Facebook on my phone. I came across Jamie Delaine’s most recent blog post about traveling to NYC later this month, and as I read it on my phone I convinced myself that my life would never be like Jamie’s. I’d never be able to pick up and go to New York. And have I mentioned I’m *never* going to be as cute a Jamie? She defines “cute photographer”. Yes, all of these things run through my head. How embarrassing.

Then I stopped.

Seriously? Wasn’t it just last night that I was planning to find my satisfaction in God? AND aren’t I leaving on a road trip to northern California tomorrow?! Aren’t I going to be driving across the country with a great friend I haven’t seen in months in just 2 weeks? Plus at the beginning of May I was not only able to go to the EscalateLIVE conference, which no joke, brought me to tears more than once. [I’m not kidding, Escalate was AMAZING. Go here and buy the Video on Demand. You will NOT regret it!] I was also able to meet in person [!] Elisabeth Carol, a photographer I have grown to love dearly through Twitter, Facebook and blog stalking. Who am I to be so unsatisfied?

Sometimes I just have to laugh at myself.

Jasmine Star is my hero. That is all.

So, in focusing on being satisfied with God and seeing the life He gave me the way He wants me too, I’m super excited to announce that I get to capture images of the Free Photoshoot contest winner Lauren! Blog commenter number 8! I’m typing up an email to you as I post this Lauren! I can’t wait to work with you! :]